"I am writing to you because I simply don’t
know where else to turn."
On any given day, somewhere in the world, a man born with a bicuspid aortic valve learns about it for the first time.
Why a man? Because BAV is up to 3 times more common in men than women. What is it like for this man, typically healthy, with little need for visits to doctors' offices?
Angelo and his wife, Australians, visited with some of us in southern California Arlys Velebir, Mary Houchin, Richard Houchin, Angelo, Marie, Dr. Sharo Raissi |
Here we share one man's experience. Angelo Doukas has given us permission to share the letters he wrote to the Bicuspid Aortic Foundation shortly after his diagnosis. We have removed a few personal details and added subtitles, but the following, mainly untouched, is Angelo's beautifully written account of his experience .
First Ever, Routine Heart Check
Just over one week ago, a routine heart
check (the first I have ever done in my life) revealed that I have a bicuspid
aortic valve and aneurysm of the ascending aorta.
My cardiologist, who I had just met,
explained what this meant and showed me the ultrasound images. He explained that a normal aorta is about
3.5 cm and that when my aneurism grows from its current 4.7 cm to 5 cm, surgery
will be required. He explained how the
aortic valve is supposed to operate and how mine does, how the condition has
familial links, and so on. He asked to
see me again in six months.
I think I will always remember his parting words
for the rest of my life: “nothing will
happen to you in the immediate future, but it’s a problem”. I’m not used to hearing those words.
Shock
I sat in my car afterwards in a daze, not
quite sure what this was all about but knowing that it was serious. I was in shock, but not yet emotional because
I didn’t know enough about the condition to form any opinions.
I came home, started researching on the
internet and came across your website. I
read about the condition itself (I still can’t bring myself to use the term
“disease”) and then read your stories of hope.
That’s when I became emotional.
In a single day, my life completely
changed. Until that day, I was a healthy
55 year old who always looked after himself.
I am a vegan, I exercise, have never smoked, have very little stress in
my life and a wonderful, supportive family.
My parents are still alive and
well, and I looked forward to a healthy old age.
My Life Will Go On!
One week later, I am still emotional, but
my focus has changed. Your website and a
follow up discussion with my family doctor have reassured me that my condition
does not mean an end to my life. It will
never be the same, but it will not end. If
nothing else, I’m grateful that I’ve reached this age without symptoms and
without requiring surgery. I’m also
grateful I discovered the condition at 55 years of age. I have enough time to mentally prepare for
the challenges ahead, and I have lived my life until this point in time without
the burden of knowing what lay ahead!
A Father's Heart
But as I said, my focus has changed. This week I’ve been thinking of my two
children, both of whom are in their late twenties. My cardiologist (I am also struggling to say
“my cardiologist”) has strongly
recommended that my children are checked.
I know this is the right thing to do and have told them they should do
it. But I live in fear that one or both
of them have this condition. Just the
thought of them having to undergo a future procedure is enough to weaken me at
the knees.
You have mentioned that one of the worst things about BAV is that it’s a silent killer because healthy people are blissfully unaware they have it. I would argue that the worst thing is the familial link because of the guilt and emotions and repercussions that result from it. Your web site talks a lot about frail aortas, but right now I am feeling so emotionally frail thinking about my children that I often break into tears.
Going Back for More Information
Now that I am much better
informed, I have booked another appointment with my cardiologist for early next
week (there was no way I was going to wait six months!) to have some of my
questions answered. I will also take my
wife with me, because I would like her to hear everything first hand.
After the Second Cardiologist Visit
He (cardiologist) had asked me to come back in six months’ time, so he was very surprised to
see me. I had booked the appointment
without him knowing! I think he was
genuinely concerned that he had created so much anxiety in me, so he gave me as
much time as I wanted.
I feel so much better after this second
visit, for two reasons. Firstly, it
appears that my bicuspid aortic valve is in excellent shape and, at 55 years of
age, is still performing as well as a normal tricuspid valve (no abnormal
leakage, etc.) and could continue to do so indefinitely. My wife can verify his exact words: “if the
rest of your body was up to it, you could compete in the Olympic Games”.
Angelo chatting with Dr. Sharo Raissi in southern California |
Although I have no intention or desire to
compete in the Olympic Games, it was music to my ears. He reminded me that he had made that point in
our first session and, frankly, I believe he had. But so many arrows were being thrown at me from
all directions that I was only hearing the bad news.
Secondly, my aneurysm is 4.6 cm, not
4.7 cm. Not a big difference, but I’ll
take every millimetre I can get. He
mentioned that he had many patients (one of them was actually in the waiting
room) who stayed on this size for many years.
In summary, your lovely letter, in
combination with this second visit, has put me in a much better state of
mind. My fear about requiring imminent surgery
has subsided, and I am more confident that surgery, at least initially, would
only be required for the aneurysm and not the valve.
Believe me, I am not being complacent, nor am
I taking anything for granted. But as
you so correctly pointed out, at least now I know a little more about what’s
inside me, and I can work with my cardiologist to monitor the problem and act on
it at the appropriate time.
My only remaining concern relates to my
children. I have advised both of them to
have a test and, at least for the foreseeable future, I will now leave it up to
them.
Thank you so much, Angelo, for allowing us to share this. I am sure it will help many who are learning for the first time that they were born with BAV.
Best wishes,
Arlys Velebir
BAF President